~i m joyYfUL 4 u'Re wiF mE~

sunday le.. tml gonnna be a start of e dae... haha.. todae was keep bein scold my parent manz.. was lyk arghx.. but nvm =)... i was juz feelin.. dat.. i realli detest tokin on fone... basically i realli hate fone.. i hate callin ppl and ppl callin mi.. i dun like fone.. smth i juz feel i haf no hp at all..

perhaps. since young i haf develpoed a habit of quietnes... i dun realli like to tok tooo.. as ppl will not believe.. smth i may dislike bein surrounded by ppl cuz in my heart i feeel i m alone? accpet wif my frenz.. as in skol frenz.. some of em.. i haf beeeen askin myself? i m autistic? m i livin in my own world? i keep haf e tinkin.. like smth i m ok.. smth i m juz livin in my own world.. i dun like livin in my own world i feeeel so alone.. i haf beeeennn tryin to come out.. as it haf beeen a fear of bein rejected in all means wen i try to luv ppl? even ppl hu ask mi to lurve others? yet i dun feel e love they haf gave? how? i not sayin dat they r not good all dis.. i truly lurve em...


jesus pls be wif mi.. i m tryin i m sincere to live in ur kingdom... Lord pls guide mi n protect mi..