HAPPY YET SAD! =(

the camp was on! wOO

i am supposed to be happy.

but indeed my heart sank

i've planned the cultural night.

but jackson(my president) asked me back for the rehearsal for my I & I (passing down)

why bother to send me as a rep for the camp but withdraw me away?

he said it is a must i understand.

i've planned everything out and now i have to pass evt to von to lead the night.

i am not asking for power.

but it takes pain and nights to come up with ideas.

it is the peak of the camp.

even i am not leading it.

i also hope i will be there.

and now i m deprived of it.

i really hate the feeling. oh man , i felt defeated.

yida said i will be still in programme perhaps same Day 2. but during night time i wun be there with them.

i've no choice. i need to obey ORDERS. ok watever.

it is really a waste. i dun have another chance.

i hate regrets. but i am bounded. wat to do.


REGRETS REGRETS

i hate listing it down. it hurts.




Lord, i believe everyting is still under your control under ur plan

i will take it and be humble.

i will do my best in what i do.

i will stop grumbling when i go for the camp evt.

i believe it will be the best plan for you as well.

i believe in my Lord, Jesus Christ.




i hope i can be who you want me to be

love,
soohoon