~i m pEaCefUL 4 u'Re wiF mE~


todae as i sang praise song i encounter alot of spiritual attack till i haf gossesbumps.. aft tat i sang i m runnin aft u- planet shakers i sang n suddenly i tink of smth i tear.. now i m listenin to.. u stand alone.. well.. runin aft u.. i dun care wat ppl will sae.. i wun turn back n walk my way cuz i noe my future is in ur hands.. i sang n i noe i haf turned my way in a way or either.. no spendin of qt.. no spiritual food but yet i din live a life.. of wat severly.. i still do my h/w all dis.. but i haf been workin wenever i m free indeed i m coverin my pains.. cuz wen i m tired i juz yearn a encouargment frm any of my church buddies.. been workin 3 times a week with a heavy burden i feel quite tired.. tml goin to work.. till 8pm thn can come home.. b4 tat come back bath thn out to work.. well.. realise i din tok to God i forgot bout Him i noe he is wif mi i pray to him everydae but it seem.. i cry out i noe last time God seem my best frenx but now human haf become my best frenz... y m i always tearin.. i m emotional? m i crazy? haha.. i dun used to tear at all..

i m tired.. physicalli.. i m tired spiritually.. but in dis road i see no hands to lift mi up i feel so sad.. perhaps abby is rite.. i m actin happie in my blog.. perhaps i juz wanna run away but 1st it is not mi NO ONE COME TO CLARIFY WIF MI WHICH I EARNESTLY WANTED TO.. no one bother? everyone juz tink i m spiritual dry i backslide..



ahhh.. i noe i can b happpie but not as happie as my frenship wif God.. i hate it.. God!!! i wan evt back.. let mi b in ur throne.. i long to feel u once more so desperately.. haiz realli i m beri bier despearted for juz one taste of ur word or one word of ur smile.. i rmb tat time i was tokin to u.. i was askin u.. r u angry wif mi.. u juz sae I LURVE U.. w/o any correction or wat.. u noe wat i nid.. God indeed u're great.. i will nv once claim i can live w/o u nv will i dare to tink in dis way..






if i haf nth at all, at least i haf u .. it is enuff`-