should i say todae was more of an emotional day or an unlucky series of unfortunate events?


morning got up at 650am headed to kranji mrt to meet my fellow leo peeps. head to villa francis old folks home.

help em to eat. some feed. while i push some up to their ward aft lunch. and some join us for games.

there was a woman clinging on my hand perhaps 70 plus couldn't rmb. the person in charge sae that she has serious senile demenlia. dunno how to spell. so when she think of her past. she will shed tears. when she cling on my hand i realli felt like crying. tears goin to roll. when u glance thru some cheerful old folks but act. they are kinda lonely at times. some kids juz went overseas n abandon their parents. some dun even pay $$. hmm. sad-ed. come to think of it. the community or should i sae the society is gettin more n more cruel. let's say. IS module-COMMUNITY. most din allow include in their choices. i dunno. i was ponderin if i shld follow. but nope. i nearly kicked out entreprenship which they sae it was the most impt. i wonder y. but no offence. just tot of it. yuan jin thn told her she came here last time. there was an old folk clingin on her hand askin her to brin her back to her own home. i bet they miss their children so much la.i also wonder why i become so emotional? when we left? i miss those smiles they r so SWEET ok? their tears. priceless. i realli miss my grandpa. that marriage cause you to gif up on urself. i hate marriage,bgr disgusting.

nv let the old folks do nth. let em do things. let em feel useful. cause feeling useless is the beginning of another tragic. hais.

well. NXT UNLUCKY!!! things happen to me issss... i toook 160 plan to go back JE but i went to CUSTOMS WOODLANDS

i got to look for several policeman to let me pass the NO ENTRY door back. and i m so dumb i tot that is malaysia i din go to the staircase down. i went all the way out for 2 bus stops away.
it was so cold. so deserted. so scary. so afraid. big rain. pouring. trucks away. and a dog ran to me. i was so afraid i m gonna get attacked. got onto the bus freakin cold. and i m havin a beri bad stomachache. it is killing me.


just went to tell mum todae bout old folks home end up i crying. i cannot stand it. ahhh. i m so vulnerable.i can't continue the conservation.0nce i think of their tears, it felt like it is realli worth giving up alot just to take care of them.


it was so paiseh la. to cry infront of my mum. awww. =(


ok end of my feelings.


=)

cherish everyone.
cherish life.