An emo post. just wanna relieve my feelings..


today cook my own dinner


sat at the kitchen and ate my dinner alone


what i am eating is my grandma's fave.



suddenly think of the past..

when she will make for me

and we will sit together at the kitchen

and chat and also goissp.

when she come for stayover

we will chat till she fall asleep


past maybe just one year ago?

i really really hope i am the one using the crutch now..

instead of her.. i really hope i will be the one who cannot walk.

becuz of that incident she had to stay at home with my uncle and maid.

and she seldom come to stay over..

cuz she cannot walk properly..

i do visit her often..

but everything is juzt different now..




later on is lantern festival..

every year she will come..

and she will prepare all the prayers thing..

walking here and there..

but she's unable this year round



i really miss the times

when she will hold my hand and walk me to kindergarden everyday.

when she is so much taller than me..

when everyone despise me, she give me unconditional love..

when everyone mocks at me, she never once hit me..

thanks so much for ur unconditional love..



there's many times.. words can't express one sorrows..




the nights are just so unbearable.




when night fall,it never stop to haunt me








love,
soohoon