~i m JoYfUL 4 u'Re wiF mE~


hello.. aft no bloggin for 5 daes.. i m backie.. heehe.. well.. hmmm.. dis few daes r more of self relfection oso.. tokin to God.. tryin to read e bible as much as i can too.. yest nite.. sz call mi.. but i din.. noe.. oso.. aft some time go see abby oso gif mi a miss call so call her back.. thn was chattin.. thn i told her i learn alot..

and she told mi it is God's plan y i become like dis.. there is a reason behind.. God is bringin mi to experience smth dat i haf nv noe until now.. it is bout.. how.. nbs r so impt to us.. it giv mi e perservance nxt time if i face wif a backsliddin nbs i noe wat to do? not i m backslidin hahaz.. i wun.. i told God.. he is my life.. i can't live w/o him.. =).. well.. in dis period.. i told abby.. i find my true frenz... jency wendy pei yu abby thnx.. u guys.. sms mi all those sweet sms.. i realli cherish.. on tues receive a sms frm my shepherd.. but thn.. as i read i tink she dun understand my situation.. her words dun telly wif mi. she ask mi to b soft towards God? but i tink thru i m not hard toawards God.. but i still noe she cares..


todae suppose to meet abby but smth cropped up thn cannot meet her.. God i haf learn alot.. durin dis time.. i realli tink alot of my sins n mistakes.. n repentin one by one to u.. i hhope dis times i m realli givin u my hurts.. there is no hatred in mi.. juz hurt.. thn juz buiild n build up in times.. there is a lot of qns i wanna sae.. but thn i noe wen i sae.. bibcal truths may cover some of e weakness dat.. we may haf rather thn admittin thn we r all sinnners.. i do sin? i m prideful.. i def not afraid for anyone to noe my weakness.. but thn.. wat is holdin mi? is hurts n tears.. i dunno.. dis few days i hope dat i will stick close to Jesus.. cuz ultimately man do hurt one another.. but we forgive one another amen?..

durin dis time, i realise.. y do nbs backslide easily? last time mayb for nbs i used to heck care.. i dun take em seriously.. but now i learnt every nb is realli beri impt it is not bout duties check ur heart? do u do it wholeheartedly or juz by leader says?..

i juz recall.. wen i m leadin in west c3.. evt i do things if it is in a wrong way.. no one will correct mi they will follow onli hong siong will tell mi dat he disagree.. it is good.. leaders r not always correct.. i mrb last time wenever hs correct mi i always use bibcal truths juz to cover my pride n weakness.. but now i learn.. leader r here to lead.. n even bein correct by our ppl hu may see our weakness.. but pls check ur heart wen u wanna correct ur lrd.. abby told mi.. dat y west c last time keep growin cuz wen abby haf a weakness i will be beri str. forward to her.. mayb she will angry but we did it so naturealy juz like we lurve abby so much.. she oso change to b more humble.. but now i see alot of robots bein produced wif a yes n amen.. ? not rebellion.. but we ought to tink not follow blindly? =) dat all i haf share.. wen i tink..








jesus freak is wat i strive for- humbility` =)