nowadayz was like lookin thru yq.. asha.. pei yu.. every1 in church blog`.. saw asha blog got dis song call one way` i miss singin dis song`.. was lookin at pei yu blog.. she sae she is beri happie bein in dis church she feel so blessed..

dat exactly how i feel last time.. now i no longer feel tat.. even e basic call love.. i haf lost e feelin of feelin lurve frm ppl.. cuz ppl r so fake.. onli care on wat they tink to em is more impt`.. i used to b beri happie bein in church.. i simple lurve.. nowadays was stayin at home.. which i last time dun haf.. last time i m always busi.. my frenz always sae i m busi.. yet.. i told em.. i m so happie bein busi.. i m servin Jesus dat y i m doin all dis.. i haf been doin all dis.. tryin to lurve others.. tryin to do alot of things.. i m not to brag.. but i receive deep cuts in my heart.. everydae i wanna read e bible to take away my hurts too.. christmas.. seem.. ppl in e church r so busi wantin ppl to convert`.. since they forgot.. what is most impt`..

last yr christmas.. was spend wif west`.. dat time i dun realli noe shu zhen joyce all dis.. yet i m beri happie oso.. spendin my christmas wif em.. lurvin em.. dis yr shall b a lonely wan.. yupp.. my mum wan to buy mi a deuter bag.. i earn it wif my own credit on my results n lvl wan.. but yet.. she is not realli beri willin..

y do ppl? can buy all dis.. w/o anytin.. and wen come to mi.. they correct mi.. sayin wat i m doin is juz wrong` nth else.. wrong wrong corrections mistaken u haf sinn.. dat;s always e msg i get in west.. i nv see e lurve of correction like wat i used to haf.. i m not bein prideful.. 6 mth? i haf experienced and i tink mayb is their way diff ways.. but for 6 mth.. i no longer can stand`..


nth like frenzship or family things.. can hurt mi juz as much as dis.. now i realise God do place a beri heavy n impt place in mi.. i can't lose him.. nor let go`...











wat haf i done wrong? m i totally wrong? haiz.. i m lost in e maze.. lonely n cold` siGh`