~i m JoYfUL 4 u'Re wiF mE~


well let tok bout yest 1st.. mi meet abby for bible stardee startly is beri happie cuz i so long nv renew by e Word of God le.. thn we went to jack place to eat.. go her hse i wanna bible study she sae she wanna rest 1st cuz she feel beri full so i do my dnt until nite go home.. thn i sae no bible stardee she sae oh ya.. but she sae nvm.. cuz we got spend time together i was tinkin deep in my heart i wan to spend time wif God.. i wan to learn dat bible stardee mean alot to mi..i was lookin forward i tell li shan i mberi happie to come in touch wif e Word of God again.. i feel so disappointed.. i tink i shall read it alone.. bahz... but we spend oso not really meaningul i m doin dnt all alone in e room.. was beri bored.. mustself do at home.. abby is busi doin her stuffs tat y.. not she dun wan..



ok.. tok bout todae.. todae is better.. as i woke up early in e mornin 8 plus thn went swimmin sun tan abit.. thn until noon dad fetch mi home.. thn eat thn tok to dad n mum.. thn dad went to work. thn mum was tokin to mi bout BGR cuz my cousin got BGR thn she sae too young.. thn she ask mi got not.. i sae i got once.. but now dun haf le... i dun wanna waste my time on it.. nd oso i wan to glorify God mahz.. keke.. thn pack my room throw alot two plastic of rubbish.. thn dad come back wif dinner thn tok tok tok till now i m goin to bath.. thn slp tml still nid to revise do h/w and oso work yawnss... skol is not like last time doin things i llike goin to shepherd sheepss but more on workin.. n stardee.. can sae it is still ok..but compare now i oso dun wanna go to church cuz no one come n clarify wif mi wen i haf go le.. but they onli gif mi a reply thnx for sharin wif mi.. haizz.. it hurt mi alot.. cuz i noe if i go back e hurts will still come back unless it is clear.. y they r so self centreed.. or mi? haizz.. my life suck hu shld i blame.. soohoon lo.. mi myself..





tml dunno wil blog not.. but i knew life is not gonna b e same.. i shall pick up myself.. CAUSE.. NO ONE IS WILLING.. everyone is busi wif their own life.. haizz...



ask u a qns

if ur cg members din come church, can u even a sms oso nv msg? if it is mi i will visit em le.. i m sayin of anytin.. i juz cannot imagine i haf such a sux up leader... sorri.. for e bad words.. i noe all dis can juz express how i feel now.. i m not good in expressin wif my face or sppech even if u see mi everydae i juz cannot brin myself to haf a sad face i can't not i dun wan.. i dunno y.. perhaps e GIFt frm God.. but i noe wen i exxpress in speech i got alot to share.. alot of words to descirbe juz how i feell... even my church fren can tink i backslide i m prideful but i realli tink thru i m not prideful haizz...





dis weekk... i did alot of sin.. but good thing is holy spirit is stil wif mi.. wen i m lonely i will tok to.. it help mi to analyse my sins everytime i walk home.. thn i repent i tink thru.. i dun wan to bear grudges.. althou i feel hurt so much juz so much but i will nv gif up on anyone of my frenx.. or even God in my own life..




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i nv gif bad spirit to anyone on wat happen.. i nv complain to anyone but i juz knew typin here.. will relase my hurts.. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............


wat r church for... it haf change... y it is not like last time? sighhh



endtimes i knew i will go to hell.. cuz i noe i haf no church fren to hold on to.