well. todae went to see doc on y i scratch my hand durin nite times w/o mi knowin

doc ask mi once got any prb in mi. i sae no

ask mi second times thn i admit lols

thn she sae. perhaps i m disturbed by certain thing bahs


my parent everydae sae one thing. my heart is hurt[almost can't take it alreadi] until i feel like

takin a knife

and stab myself. i keep ask my mother n father to shut up wen they sae bout dis. cuz it link

to a previous deep hurts. e more they sae. i dunno how long can i hold on.

they r not understandin even wen i try to understand em

but i dun blame em. =)


well. 2n3 outin to sentosa i dun wan to go to ELC

perhaps some may tink i m playful

neglect studies

waste my parent's money

but i m not. no one understands

someone may go n spread bout my weakness

but go ahead i dun realli mind

misunderstandins. weridness, is how e world go on. perhaps


i m a failure.

i fail in bein a good fren

i deeply sux

i deserve ur hatred