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Lord,

i cannot forget e betrayal i haf in ur church

it is tearing my heart once again

y she din tell mi e truth

i haf did it i haf done it

my studies ain't e prb y i cannnot serve as a CL

e prb i believe is my spiritual

y she din tell mi!

she sae we haf to consider of ur studies

tat y u can't serve as a CL

but y others can still serve and even become an UL

Lord i dun chase for Fame or Status

but Lord i can accept the truth but not the false

the lies she give mi is tearing my passion

creating hatred for Hope Of God.


i cannot accpet all the lies




i told her when i juz backslide

but she juz reply ok

wat it means Lord?

she doesn't care at all

lord,

tell mi why

tell mi wat to do

nobody understands

everyone tell mi dun look at e past

but a past is a major fall

i dun wan to leave it without knowin y

Lord,


for dis past 1 yr plus

i haf nv forget the false truth

that was given to mi

my studies?

is it so bad

it seem like my studies is the worst

but Lord

all along my studies is normall

i did my best

as i noe i wan To honour U

even in my O Level Results

but y Lord

Lord


my hurts haf become hatred

i haf listen more to satan thn u

i dun wan to b captivated


i can feel ur love n peace.

but e hurts can't b recovered

Lord, sorrie.

i dun wan to b like this

it is beri painful suffering alone.

no one will bother


one yr haf pass. scar gettin deeper.

hatred goin deeper

i dun wan Lord.

Help mi Lord

i can't brin myself to the church that betray mi.

Lord i seem like an idiot.

a stupid fella

a stubborn one

i m no longer ur obedience child



i dunno how.





agape love,
soohoon