~i m JoYfUL 4 u'Re wiF mE~


todae was totally bad.. went to skoll still okkk.. thn durin chem.. mi n judi tokin but is mostly on chem eqn.. thn ms koe come scold us thn ask mi to sit in e back.. thn was bein scolded feel beri discrimated wif so mani eyes on mi.. haizz.. thn was scribing the paper for 4 full pages.. thn was feelin extremely lousy but at tat time wen she scold mi everyone is lookin at mi.. i keep tokin to Jesus.. actuallie at tat moment for no reason i feel like runnin out of class.. oso dunno yy juz feel like runnin out to cry.. not becuz of ms koe scold mi thn i cry la.. lol..

thn went home wanna to slp.. thn was haunt by satan.. haizz... suddenly tinkin of hj thn i was tinkin she now wif zihui doin beri fine.. her blog read bout her compasssionn for fuhua her enthu is i nv see wen she is my sheep.. so i was cryin cuz satan keep sae i m a failure.. my sheep dun like mi... i tinkin i try beri hard to takke care of hjj but i doubtt she like mi.. i lurve her n try to help her mani rejections i had but i din not give up// now i get e ans she nid to change shepherd.. haiz.. from a person blog hu sae backslider is nth but a stupid fool.. haizz.. i m oso a failure..

haizz.. thn now doin chinese homework wanna stardee hard.. fail my math.. by 3 marks.. and pass chinese for ca so far.. everytime i dropp to my church fren blog..my heart will juz break.. haizz.. seein em sad.. even seein em happie doin well.. smth i juz feel saddd.. i can't play a part..


was smsin wif hong siong thnx u.. u encouarge mi alot.. haha! thnx! at e same time.. smth i was tinkin ppl backslide of BGR , fren.. yet they can haf a reason.. but i leave e church so unwillinggly.. yet at tat point i feel tat i haf no choice.. how i share.. they will juz correct mi.. sighh...


fail my math 17/40.. haizz suan le.. i m juz a stupid fool...










will my heart stopp beatin one dae?
my blood haf turn cold-







wif deeeppp cries,

so o hoon