juz now i blog alot but din publish out

haiss


was tinkin bout church thing

was filled with deep doubts n hurts

wen i tink all over

sz go to YS

to mi there will b no end

u all can ask mi to go back to church


i once told abby i juz go back to church

n let go evt

but she told mi if i dun clarify

i go back will not help mi much

I WONDER Y BECUZ OF MY STUDIES

I CANNOT DO MORE FOR GOD

WHILE SHE LET ANOTHER PERSON

TO B AN UL WEN HER RESULT IS SAME WIF MI

i m not jealous or wat

i feel so unfair

she can str tell mi i spiritually cannot

i dun mind thn some craps reason

which realli hurts

it is not onli once

but moreee...



but i m still glad that they call mi..

while dis week or recently was low tide for mi

realli low..

hais hais hais hais hais

clauz go back to church

we r diff

she leave with no hurts

but i leave wif deep hurts

i rmb tat time i cry wen i refuse to go to church conference

durin dec. tat nite i no longer can take it

wen i tok to abby n jane.

i cry wen i cannot take it anymore

no one understands

abby always sae wan to call mi

in e end oso nvm. i oredi xi guan

but she still helps mi alot

noe she is busy but she realli help mi alot le

thnx abby


hais

God i wonder y life is so unfair..

i wonder if i realli go back

i oso cannot clarify anymore.

tat period was realli beri beri hard for mi to pass by

Lord i noe u saw tat.

so u r askin mi back


wen hs clauz yq wendy jen joyce call mi

to go church to stardee


sometimes wen hurts come my way

i will juz tolerate. swallow it down

i dun cry anymore.

enuff

everythin is enuff

i still can take it

ren ren ren

i wun burst cuz i m not a ballon



how much i go thru

i cannot forgett

i m totally alone tat period

but i m thncful

i haf go thru

perhaps God is e onli witness to all dis

i can sense dis hurt for mi.

comfortin mi.

i can hear dis ans to mi

his comfort.


haiss

knockin on e door of death/despair
wOO

todae went out wif family

thn go eat

went home

go out wif cousin a while.

thn now bloggin lolss


nth much

todae saw xiu ru lo.

eh nth much oso.

wake up at 0816 am dis mornin. lols.

thn went back durin noon to slp awhile one hr

thn wake up see tv.

so went out le

nth much happens.

HAPPI

i bless everyone a good weekend too

take care buds gone




pls dun doubt mi.


i dun haf er yi.